tag:chrisjay.blog.co.uk,2009-11-10:/MokoFeed2009-11-10T18:02:01+01:00tag:chrisjay.blog.co.uk,2008-02-28:/2008/02/28/my-pain-3794524/black-magic2008-02-28T21:35:54+01:002008-02-28T21:35:54+01:00 <p>ive had enough. I feel suicidal and my life sucks. my friends help me through the days but i dont like it atall. I aint gay but i think im emo. my class are evil *look its gay chris* ive FUCKING had enough. i swear to god im going to crack; i need help if im gonna keep living but i dunno who to ask. they bully me i spose but i would rather suffer in silence than be a grass. i have slit my wrists coountless times but i cant tell any of the bois cause they imitate me slitting them. the girls are caring but think im through it but im not. im getting a lot worse. i cant talk to anyone cause they all think im a great happy child with a great happy life. but mainly i cant tell my mom and dad, they have always done the best for me. it would crush them, i cant do that to em, it would ruin their lives. i talk to ppl over the internet bout it on sites like there for me and all that. i dont deserve the parents and friends ive got i cant release this to everyone cause they will go and have a field day at skool. anyway tomorrow is gonna be another crappy day till the next day is the weekend and then i can prepare myself for the pain and hurt of the next week. no one else will know wot i go through but i cant talk to my form tutor or he will never look at me in the same way again. its not the girls though they see me and know wot i feel but the boys take the piss and make me feel worse but i cant tell them ever. i dont know why maybe cause girls are more understanding. i have this book where i keep the names of all the ppl who have been evil to me. i wanna get em back but im a too good kid. i aint eva got a detention or a b1 or anything. i just feel sad most of the time. i cant tel my bezzies cause it will thrash them. i cant write no more.<br> <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"> <img src="/img/smilies/icon_sad.gif" alt=":(" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://chrisjay.blog.co.uk/2008/02/28/my-pain-3794524/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:chrisjay.blog.co.uk,2008-02-23:/2008/02/23/school_teachers~3770432/black-magic2008-02-23T21:18:40+01:002008-02-23T21:18:40+01:00 <p>I dont like school, i dont like anything about it especially teachers. My teacher started ranting on about nothing and we missed half the lesson. i dont like the way they set US homework and think that they are better than us. I dont think we should get homework because we use our brains all day at school and then we have to use it at home. whislt the teachers only read stuff out of a book that they have prepared for them. stupid teachers think they know it all they soo dont though. grrr<img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/090twisted.gif" border="0" alt=""> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://chrisjay.blog.co.uk/2008/02/23/school_teachers~3770432/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>