ive had enough. I feel suicidal and my life sucks. my friends help me through the days but i dont like it atall. I aint gay but i think im emo. my class are evil *look its gay chris* ive FUCKING had enough. i swear to god im going to crack; i need help if im gonna keep living but i dunno who to ask. they bully me i spose but i would rather suffer in silence than be a grass. i have slit my wrists coountless times but i cant tell any of the bois cause they imitate me slitting them. the girls are caring but think im through it but im not. im getting a lot worse. i cant talk to anyone cause they all think im a great happy child with a great happy life. but mainly i cant tell my mom and dad, they have always done the best for me. it would crush them, i cant do that to em, it would ruin their lives. i talk to ppl over the internet bout it on sites like there for me and all that. i dont deserve the parents and friends ive got i cant release this to everyone cause they will go and have a field day at skool. anyway tomorrow is gonna be another crappy day till the next day is the weekend and then i can prepare myself for the pain and hurt of the next week. no one else will know wot i go through but i cant talk to my form tutor or he will never look at me in the same way again. its not the girls though they see me and know wot i feel but the boys take the piss and make me feel worse but i cant tell them ever. i dont know why maybe cause girls are more understanding. i have this book where i keep the names of all the ppl who have been evil to me. i wanna get em back but im a too good kid. i aint eva got a detention or a b1 or anything. i just feel sad most of the time. i cant tel my bezzies cause it will thrash them. i cant write no more.
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